today's the last day of his rest day. we spent the whole day together. we watched 2 MMFF movies @ SM North and was lucky enough to be able to process my OEC at the Global Pinoy center before they closed after having being pushed away that morning as their system was still broken. we ended the night with a yummy dinner.
i hate last days of rest days as it means he has to work again the next day. palibhasa wala akong work dito to keep me busy. plus the fact that it reminds me how close my departure day is. naiyak nga ako kanina nung naalala ko na paalis na pala ako next week. sabi nya, quoting what i said before "we'll make things work". sabi nya "darating rin tayo dun, mabilis na lang, onting tiis na lang". I hate what i am feeling right now and I can't show him how i feel.
here i am, with his head on my lap, watching him sleep. I don't know if this is torture or what because hell, I will miss this. deym, tumulo na luha ko.
ayaw ko nang umalis.
ayaw ko nang malayo sa kanya.
ayaw ko nang chat lang
ayaw ko nang webcam lang
ayaw ko nang maramdaman tong nararamdaman ko.
pero wala naman akong better choice.
:'(
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