Stonehouse moment

I picked Mir up from work last Monday night. Last day at work meant relaxing night at a bar - me having dinner and him having night cap. So he chose our classic tambayan, Star Tavern @ Stonehouse. Monday night so we didn't know who the performer is, but it's a given, we will only last after the first set as we arrived quite early.  I had sizzling grilled porkchop with garlic rice & iced tea while he had Hamburger, fries and ice cold Red Horse.

One thing I love about him is that we never run out of things to talk about, to think that we are always talking to  each other, online, sms or calls. So the night passed with endless conversations. Mr Rey Vergara even sat down & chatted with us before dinner. I showed him the reception areas at Stonehouse and the rooms that came in the package. Then I asked him, if he feels pressured every time I bring up the wedding topic. Hindi naman daw. Then I told him about a conversation I had with a friend. I was asked if and when Mir & I will break up, what will be the reason?  I answered that a third party is definitely out of the list. With the feelings I have invested in our relationship, having a third party never crossed my mind.  With his personality, I believe he wont have any other party as well.  So that leaves me with my only fear, that there will come a time that I am ready to take our relationship to another level and he isn't. Then I asked him, aside from financial reasons, what stops him to take our relationship to the next level. He said, that he is not confident enough that he will be able to give me a good life; that he might disappoint me even if he tried his best.

Having have heard this, I was a bit surprised that he still feels this as this was his issue ever since (Anawangin trip). It made me feel sad that despite the words he has been telling me, that he trusts me and stuff, he still feels this about our future. Then he made a pact with me, that every time he will feel such, I will just have to remind him that we will always make a way to work things out and that if and when I feel insecure that he will leave me, he will always remind me that he won't. We sealed the pact with a kiss.

haaaayyyy.....yun yun oh. masaya ang ending...

last day rest day

today's the last day of his rest day. we spent the whole day together. we watched 2 MMFF movies @ SM North and was lucky enough to be able to process my OEC at the Global Pinoy center before they closed after having being pushed away that morning as their system was still broken. we ended the night with a yummy dinner.

i hate last days of rest days as it means he has to work again the next day. palibhasa wala akong work dito to keep me busy. plus the fact that it reminds me how close my departure day is. naiyak nga ako kanina nung naalala ko na paalis na pala ako next week. sabi nya, quoting what i said before "we'll make things work". sabi nya "darating rin tayo dun, mabilis na lang, onting tiis na lang". I hate what i am feeling right now and I can't show him how i feel.

here i am, with his head on my lap, watching him sleep. I don't know if this is torture or what because hell, I will miss this. deym, tumulo na luha ko.

ayaw ko nang umalis.
ayaw ko nang malayo sa kanya.
ayaw ko nang chat lang
ayaw ko nang webcam lang
ayaw ko nang maramdaman tong nararamdaman ko.

pero wala naman akong better choice.
:'(

Meet the Dad Day

21 December 2010, San Jose Nueva Ecija - We can't really go that far out of town this time that I am home as it is the peak season for many going back to their provinces. We didn't want to get stuck in traffic or not be able to go back because of the lack of transpo, plus the fact that all prices are up during the holidays

6.30am
We departed Baliwag Transit Cubao Terminal for San Jose via SCTEX. I haven't been there for the longest time. The ancestral house hasn't been renovated yet the last time I visited. Even the route was new for me as I got used to taking the route passing through Bulacan. I spent the trip sleeping and watching Survivors on Mir's laptop.

9.30am
We arrived at the terminal in San Jose. We waited for Papa to pick us up, as usual, he was late. Then we bought some flowers before heading to Tatang's resting place. We lit some candles and cleaned up the place a bit then left for our Cardenas residence. There I saw Inang and experienced first hand her depleting memory.







11.30 am
We headed for Papa's San Juan residence. There he cooked pinakbet, tinolang native chicken and fried some fresh tilapia. Good thing we had Coke to help Mir swallow the veggies. hahahahaha

After lunch, ayun, we took funny photos sa bakuran ni Papa.....

Then we went around the farm lands of Papa and on the road, Mir took some very nice photos...

We had to go back to Manila that afternoon. I didn't want to use up all the rest days of Mir, of course, as an agent, he needs all the rest and time for sleep for his next shift week.

Christmas 2010

        It's our second Christmas together. It feels so good that this year, he is more "at home" with my family. For someone who only gets to be in my home for only a few hours in a year in my house, he seemed to have been there for a long time - which makes me feel so nice seeing that he is already comfortable with my family. 

It was fun this year because my cousins and I did our Christmas shopping (rush) together as all of us (my generation) are all working and most of them are call center agents that's why they don't have that much time. We also had our "monito monita" for cousins and uncles and aunts due to financial constraints as our family is quite big.

Quite disappointing though that we're not complete - my married cousins spent dinner in the sides of their wives and went home only after 12; my eldest uncle didn't come despite the phone invite that morning - family dispute; my youngest aunt came in late with her children. Amidst these things, we managed to entertain ourselves with whatever we have and whoever came for our annual Christmas dinner.  After dinner, we gave the gifts to the kids and took lots of pictures.  I received a Nike capri length leggings from tita Amy and a necklace with a studded-cam pendant from Ate Jhing.

Here's my family!

me givin' gifts

mini camera ko! heheheheh

cousins, nephews and nieces

Wala man ang 1k na gift to the kids from tito Gerry that night, masaya pa rin ang lahat, especially te kids with the toys they received.

They say that Christmas is for kids, I say, the true spirit of Christmas is not only in giving of gifts but the togetherness of the family and loved ones... it's the best gift one can ever receive.